Before I summarize what the first six months of momma life has been like for me, I want to wish my Bubba a Happy Half Birthday.
Yep you read right. My bubba is 6 months old today. Gosh, that means I will soon be planning his First Birthday. Saying that out loud and typing that bring tears to my eyes. Definitely some tears of joy, but to be honest with y’all, mostly tears of sadness.
Don’t get me wrong, I am so happy to watch him grow and become a happy and clever little boy. But the last six months have flew by, faster than I imagined or wanted. I was organizing his clothes this past weekend, as he is now ready for 9-12 month old size, and I cried when I found a box of newborn clothes and the little hat the hospital put on him when he was born. They were so tiny and I suddenly remembered holding his 6 lbs. body and setting him down on my chest where he slept perfectly for hours. As exhausted as I was, I miss nursing him and those moments we had to ourselves and the world stopped around us, because during those moments, it was only him and I. Now I look back on the moment I first felt him kick or the moment I heard his heartbeat. I felt like that was just yesterday, but here were are six months later, milestone after milestone and my 6 lbs. baby is now 16 lbs. and half a year old.
Bubba is starting to explore the world around him. He knows what he wants, and he will tell you when he wants it or doesn’t want something. He laughs when he thinks something is funny, and he loves to talk. I can already see his teacher calling to tell me that Mason loves to talk in class. If he is ready for bed or wants to cuddle he lets me know. He reaches out for you when he wants to be picked up, yelling for you first. And no matter who you are, he will give you the cutest smile.
The past six months has been a journey for Bubba and I. Learning how to raise a newborn baby, balance my time as a wife, mom, student, employee, and find me time to enjoy some of my favorite pastimes and self care was a challenge. For those that know me well, they will tell you I am a sap and so I am warning you now that it’s going to get real sappy. My journey as a momma, even with all the hard moments and sleepless nights has truly been amazing.
I wasn’t completely new to being around newborns. I was a nanny once upon a time, I’ve worked in a a couple daycare centers, and I had family that had little babies. After a few months into the parenting though, I quickly realized how rewarding and exciting it was to watch Bubba grow and hit developmental milestones. I swear I could just sit around and watch him roll around and pick up his toys, and listen to him talk and tell stories. It never got boring to me. At times you can see me sitting there with tears rolling down my face, because as he reached each milestone it only meant that my bubba was growing up.
A few exciting milestones that we have reached thus far are: trying solid foods at 4 months old, sleeping through the night with an occasional bottle before bed and then again 3-4am at 4-5 months, rolling over at 2-3 months, and just recently sitting up! My husband and I are eagerly waiting for the moment he is crawling which he’s pretty close now that he can slide backwards and always takes a try at crawling. Soon he will take his first steps which I don’t think I will ever be ready for.
Have I figured out this time management thing and momma life? Nope. That would be a negative. In the first few months with Mason, the only thing I was trying to do was survive and to take care of him. Most days was centered around feedings and changing A LOT of diapers. That was our whole day, and I am telling you it was exhausting. One word: breastfeeding. Once we got him somewhat on a schedule, which is not the easy to do, I understood better where my time was going and I did my best to plan accordingly. Some days it worked out and other days I felt defeated.
In the last six months, my priorities have changed. My two best times of the day are either bright and early in the morning when I get to wake up with bubba and he gives me all the smiles and when I walk in the door after a long day of work and there he is waiting for me with a grin on his face. Now I understand that everything needs to be done for him before I get to myself, but my amazing husband usually takes over so I can get ready and he gets bubba ready for his day.
One of the biggest challenges for me as a momma is learning to not get frustrated when bubba refuses to sleep through the night or wakes up at 3am and is ready for the day. I used to often let other momma’s stories overwhelm me when they would talk about how their child was sleeping through the night as early as ten weeks. I couldn’t understand why Bubba was still waking up one to two times every night. But when he is hungry I cannot just pat him on the butt and tell him he can’t eat and to go back to sleep like the nurse practitioner instructed. My husband has been amazing in all this. After I stopped breastfeeding he took over night feedings and I will forever be grateful for him giving me back sleep.
Momma life is so much more than I ever expected. I am so thankful and blessed to be given the opportunity to be a momma. I cannot wait to see what else momma life has to offer.