So y’all already know that motherhood is hard. See, I told you I would be saying this a lot. Whether you’re a stay at home momma or full-time working momma, or a momma in between, momma life is everything but easy. Part of it is truly amazing and rewarding, which pretty much makes up for all the times when it’s hard and exhausting, and you feel defeated.
As you may already know or if you don’t, and this is your first time on my blog- thank you for stopping by- I am a full-time working momma to one handsome little boy, who will be 8 months old in a couple weeks. I seriously still cannot believe that he is almost a year old…where did time go? Any who, my bubba has been at daycare since he was 5 months old and ever since then it feels like he is sick every other week, always catching whatever bugs, viruses, and colds that are lingering around daycare.
Currently, he has been home these last couple days from daycare which complicates things a little bit. Saturday, his fever spiked up to 104. This was so scary for us. That was probably the sickest he has ever been but after giving him Motrin his fever came down a little. The next day, my husband noticed little bumps on his feet and sure enough by 3pm, it was on top of his foot, a little on his hands, and it now made sense why he was refusing to eat, as you can see a small rash on his lips and tongue. You guessed it, he has Hand, Foot and Mouth! He cannot catch a break. I hope it’s true what they say and he develops a really strong immune system after all this.
So come Monday, of course he couldn’t go to daycare. I went in half a day at the office and worked the other half from home. It used to be easy working from home when he was little baby who slept a lot. Now, working from home with him makes work twice as hard and even harder when he is sick and just wants to be attached to your hip. I’m only able to write this blog post now because he is finally asleep and I have caught up with work.
I am going to give my husband a shout out real quick! If you are reading this, you are amazing and I couldn’t get through all this chaos without you!
Working from home with a sick baby is honestly so stressful. It’s hard for my husband to stay home with him because he used all of his vacation time to take paternity leave when I went back to work, and he has pretty much used his all his sick days for the other times that bubba has been sick that I couldn’t take off. Between taking care of a new customer at work, making sure to stay on top of all my emails, keeping all my work organized, all while attending to a fussy, tired, and sick baby who doesn’t want to be anywhere but my hip, it is safe to say that these kind of days make me want to pull my hair out and it feels like a balancing act that I couldn’t possibly manage. I am pretty much in survival mode more than I want to admit to y’all.
As a full-time working momma, a sick baby doesn’t just mean a day off work to snuggle your little sick baby. It means:
- Determining which tasks can be pushed out and handled later. Sometimes, there are tasks or in my case shipments that need to be handled ASAP (I work in logistics and supply chain), which means working while my sick little baby is sleeping or taking a phone call and sending emails with a crying baby on my hip.
- Handing my sick baby off to my husband the second he walks into the door, after his long day of work (he is a Physical Education and Health teacher at a special needs school), so I can catch up on emails, check on shipments and handle any problems that I haven’t been able to deal with.
- Not only worrying about my sick baby, but also struggling with the guilt of letting my team down or having to depend on them to do my work because my hands are tied with bubba.
- Dealing with our reality that our PTO has to be saved up for not only our sick days, but bubba’s sick days.
- Throwing money out the door because he doesn’t get sick days at daycare and we still have to pay for the days he doesn’t attend due to being sick.
Over the last few months, this has been a vicious cycle with bubba being sick for what feels like every other week. We send him to daycare so we can go to work, but then he picks up all the fun germs, which complicates our lives just a tad bit. Sometimes, I wish we could go down to one income and I would be a SAHM, but life and kids cost a lot of money, and honestly, I am a better momma as a working momma. Plus, Mason loves daycare and I feel that it is so important for him to be surrounded by other people and kids and to develop those social skills and independence that I would not be able to teach him by being just us two at home.
So for now, I will continue to try to balance this work-mom-life and always remind myself that, at the end of the day, my bubba is always #1 on whatever list I have going. If he needs me at home, work has to wait. Really lucky to work for a company and have a boss that is really flexible with my life and everything that happens in it. I know some days it will be easier to keep this kind of perspective than others, but it will always remain constant.